You never know how much you are running in my mind... i never knew till time pass
i dun know how much you think, i just look at the possibilities... and i got very hush words from a fren may be its a help to wake me up from the dream that has happen for the pass months.
I know that life goes on... what matters is how much i take to get back on feet. Its not a start but it ended this way... i stilll think that i was silly !
sometimes i have true reasons to cry... i will miss all my fyp beijing frens cause you are the one that hear my story ... stay with me, feel with me...
i have occupied myself with everything i could and i am really dead tired now... i dun know how long i can take it.
I know that no one can help me except myself... school work was really disspointing.
Knowing that time made me love you SUX
feeling dead tired made me feel sleeping even doing pure reading the bible... can i just rest and get healing in God'd prescence? i am trying to learn to not that anything control me cause i am the only one that can make changes to my thinking.
there were no boundaries its humans that set it.
Monday, October 11, 2010
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
IT HURTS TILL IT HAS NO WORDS LEFT
Someone that tease me like for fun and i know he is nice met a car accident and lost part of the memory... i really felt sad and what made me realised is really spending time with ppl we enjoy and nt too late
Today I was really affected by work by him by how life is short and brittle... i was dame bad
to be honest i think i made my team members angry cause i was pissed off with work that i was helping cause what i heard is they do then pass to me.. i host... but i cannot sit there do nothing so.... i try helping but i got impatient...
Next i reallly think tooo hard for me to take it so i decided to talk to some ppl around me... they ask me to find courage to talk it out... then really affected me till i msn and i talk... but again he was busy. I dun know if he was busy or he was avoiding cause it really stopped like last month... i feel really heartach is like ttm. cause he felt nothing lor.. i wanna be there for him like always cause he has been there for me at the right time... so yah i did try to talk to him. i chat with him in a convo with less than 20 lines with a chatty person for me.. i had to think what to ask.. and how to ask cause i was really looking forward for just a time with him. the reason is cause its his big 2... i dun know lah but... i really just wanna watch a movie and pass the gift... the rest i dun really care... i dun really ask for much but his reply was "i'm not sure either" can u belive it??
I really feel like losser... when i am not even at my peak i roll down the moutain. its that confidence in me that have been eaten up by someone... i know i miss but what to do... i will give up jus give me some time...
Frens either out for trip, school trip and enjoying holiday. And my frens who always eat with me are heading to beijing not much close ones left.... i know i will miss them... y is it so hard to get through things in life? is not that its difficult maybe i just wanna be a computer that shutdown, hybernate and delete its own info... SAVE all friends and family members!
Today I was really affected by work by him by how life is short and brittle... i was dame bad
to be honest i think i made my team members angry cause i was pissed off with work that i was helping cause what i heard is they do then pass to me.. i host... but i cannot sit there do nothing so.... i try helping but i got impatient...
Next i reallly think tooo hard for me to take it so i decided to talk to some ppl around me... they ask me to find courage to talk it out... then really affected me till i msn and i talk... but again he was busy. I dun know if he was busy or he was avoiding cause it really stopped like last month... i feel really heartach is like ttm. cause he felt nothing lor.. i wanna be there for him like always cause he has been there for me at the right time... so yah i did try to talk to him. i chat with him in a convo with less than 20 lines with a chatty person for me.. i had to think what to ask.. and how to ask cause i was really looking forward for just a time with him. the reason is cause its his big 2... i dun know lah but... i really just wanna watch a movie and pass the gift... the rest i dun really care... i dun really ask for much but his reply was "i'm not sure either" can u belive it??
I really feel like losser... when i am not even at my peak i roll down the moutain. its that confidence in me that have been eaten up by someone... i know i miss but what to do... i will give up jus give me some time...
Frens either out for trip, school trip and enjoying holiday. And my frens who always eat with me are heading to beijing not much close ones left.... i know i will miss them... y is it so hard to get through things in life? is not that its difficult maybe i just wanna be a computer that shutdown, hybernate and delete its own info... SAVE all friends and family members!
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
K session
this is a post for 28/9/10
K session with Jasmine and Sheryl ... Okay these few days really feel very tired!... the usual routine kind of stress! I really wanna thank jing ting sia.. i feel so bad over smt in the morning.
I felt happy being able to spend time with fren after FYP period even though i dun really feel that that the work load is do able lah... but we are just working towards extending our limit.
dissapointment cause of expectation... yes! it happen again... the feelings come and go especially when i hope to be cared by you. i find so hard to get over things especially it has become a habit... so had until some times i just wanna stay alone. You said alot of things but i cannot be borthered cause i do not want anyone to interfere my life and pls dun act like you can accept everything of me and lastly just let me mind my life... just leave me alone cause u SUx.
ps: i want to live my life to the fullest and be a good daughter, time to get back to my usual life
K session with Jasmine and Sheryl ... Okay these few days really feel very tired!... the usual routine kind of stress! I really wanna thank jing ting sia.. i feel so bad over smt in the morning.
I felt happy being able to spend time with fren after FYP period even though i dun really feel that that the work load is do able lah... but we are just working towards extending our limit.
dissapointment cause of expectation... yes! it happen again... the feelings come and go especially when i hope to be cared by you. i find so hard to get over things especially it has become a habit... so had until some times i just wanna stay alone. You said alot of things but i cannot be borthered cause i do not want anyone to interfere my life and pls dun act like you can accept everything of me and lastly just let me mind my life... just leave me alone cause u SUx.
ps: i want to live my life to the fullest and be a good daughter, time to get back to my usual life
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